Noah fed- check
Noah's diaper changed- check
Noah dressed- check
Olivia fed and dressed- check
Olivia changed (for the third time since 6 am)- double check
Mommy dressed- check
Mommy's teeth brushed-...check
Mommy fed?- oh dear
This has been a repeat of events since the arrival of my dearest daughter. Forgetting or not given the time to do the things that seemed so much easier when I just had Noah and even easier when it was just Nick and I (don't even remember those days right now...) has been somewhat challenging. Forgetting to eat is one of them. Now everyone calm down...I eat, trust me! And this baby weight is not coming off by itself (but that's another post for another day).
But I thought about this especially when I walked into Barnes & Noble on Friday morning carrying a diaper bag over my right shoulder, managing a nine pound Olivia in her ten pound car seat in my right hand, and holding onto a wiggly toddler's hand in my left. Luckily, on the way in and out there were kind patrons who most likely felt sorry for me and did their best to help the situation by holding the door for us. We probably looked something like this...
...except we were in a bookstore, I don't have two girls, my hair isn't blond...you get the point, right?
Now for the point of this post...as I was walking (okay, hobbling) in to the large, bright foyer displaying various books I wish I had time to peruse and read the back of, I looked to the immediate right and saw my favorite area...the magazine/cafe area. Amidst the tables were a variety of people ranging in ages with one thing in common...they had no children with them and were seemingly enjoying themselves with their lattes, literature, smiles, and conversation. All seemed well dressed and like they had even showered, perhaps. It made me look down at my black yoga pants with a white spot on the leg that could have been toothpaste, could have been spit up from formula, who knows... I thought to myself as Noah tugged on my hand, "that used to be me..." while I was looking at a particulary calm and well dressed female reading an issue of People at a remote table in the corner with her coffee by her side.
That self-talk made me think about some of the things I do miss and have forgotten about now that I am a mother of two. It is only natural (and healthy) that you are not the same exact person you were. Change is necessary and often times hard. However, while I ran through a list in my head of things that I am not always able to do right now at this point in my life...I also tried the "glass half full" method of listing things that I am doing now or have now that won't always be with me. So, since I love lists anyway...thought I would record the list of "Things I Really Miss" and "Things I Will Really Miss" from the thirty-year old Michelle with two small children under 2!
THINGS I MISS NOW~
- Well, I wrote about it...reading magazines and coffee by myself at a quiet table in a bookstore
- Grocery shopping by myself (see a trend here???)
- Shopping for myself...by myself :-)
- Listening to music of my choice in the car (right now, our Veggie Tales CD is usually on and there are days if I here "He's Got the Whole World In His Hands" one more time...)
- Taking only 15 minutes to get ready and leave the house...instead of an hour and a half...
- Bringing only my purse when we leave the house...instead of a 10 pound diaper bag
- Going on an unexpected "date night" with my husband
- Time to take a nap, read a book, or watch a movie at any moment of the day
- A house that is organized, tidy, and clean for more than 12 hours
- A quiet house
- Eating a meal without having to vacuum the floor afterward
- Living at my house...not in a doctor's waiting room
On the contrary to all the things I miss and all the days that I don't absolutely LOVE being a stay-at-home mom, there is the realization that Noah and Olivia will only be small once. Someone (I think my mom..) once told me after having a rough day at home with the kids "this too shall pass". While that is comforting advice when you are exhausted and your nerves have been stretched to their limits...it is also somewhat sad to know that your babies will not always be babies. They won't always take all your time and energy because there will come a time when they don't need you to the degree they need you now. So in that light, while I was holding a squirmy Noah during the actual read aloud...I tried to think about the things I know I will miss all too soon.
THINGS I WILL MISS...
- Olivia's snuggles
- Noah's amazement at the smallest things...like stacking blocks!
- A house that doesn't resembe a toy-bin
- Noah's giggles in the house
- Lunchtime with Noah in his bib and booster seat
- Sippy cups
- Noah with his pacifier and best friend...his blanket or "na-na"
- Playgrounds
I am sure there are many more things I will miss along the way as my children grow up. While the stress of raising kids can get the best of any parent, it's appreciating all these small moments while you can that is important. So, while I will be the first to admit that there are days that I do wish my house was cleaner and quieter, that I had the entire day to watch a Lifetime movie marathon instead of changing diapers, washing bottles, cleaning up food particles on the ground, or filling up sippy cups, I will also be the first to say that all of the exhaustion, stress, and time my children take..is 100% worth it. However, that is usually easier to see and recognize once I put them down for bed and have had a glass of wine. :-)
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